I want to tell you a lie that the enemy tells us or tries to tell us all the time that we will completely believe if we're in a vulnerable state. A vulnerable state could mean depression or it could mean you're facing a big challenge or you are hurting some way -- a vulnerable state is any state that isn't you being at peace, confident in who you are.
Here's the lie: You are alone in this. No one understands. You don't have any close friends. No one cares. You're friendless.
This is a lie for all of us! None of us are alone. All of us are loved. Deeply loved. If you don't have eyes to see the people who are loving you, start with Jesus. He is at this very moment sitting beside the Father praying for you (Romans 8:34). And earlier in the chapter it says "the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words" Romans 8:26
So each of us has the Triune God on our side: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. If the Son and Spirit are praying for us you know the Father has our back!
Whatever side God is on is a majority.
What about people?
It's God's will for you to have friends, for you to be in relationship with other people. He has placed people in your life who love you. If you don't recognize them ask God to show you who really cares. You'll be amazed.
When I was in the middle of my deep depression I attended the Women's Winter Retreat in Rapid. The second day I sat down in the auditorium. No one sat beside me. The devil used that. I could have moved, but I didn't. I noticed some of the ladies at my church and began to think they didn't care. I was no use to anyone. I was alone. I was believing the lies. There were several women I could have sat by, but my legs and feet were heavy. I couldn't even get out of the chair. I just wept. Finally, one dear friend reached from behind me and asked if I was okay. I said yes. Liar! This dear woman would have prayed with me. This dear woman would have made room for me. But I was believing the lies that I was alone.
Don't believe these lies. The enemy's way is to isolate us from everyone else. A person all alone is easier to attack. And when we're being attacked life gets darker and darker.
Don't believe that you're alone. Many people love you. Many people care. We humans, though, can be dense and not see the hurting right in front of us. Take a chance and ask someone to pray with you.
What you are dealing with someone near you has dealt with something similar. They can help you.
"No temptation (or trouble or depression or trial) has overtaken you but such is common to man;" 1 Corinthians 10:13a
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You are a glorious human being. God's got plans for you, plans you will find great joy in.
I'm a writer. That's about all I can do. I'm not the best writer by far. Some might say I'm not even good. But no matter. I'm still a writer at heart. But I wasn't writing and God told me to start writing down stories from my life. I told Him that no one would want to read those. Why bother? But He insisted. My husband agreed with him. So, I've been writing between 2200 and 2500 words daily and I'm up to about 42,000. I'm shooting for 100,000. Once I'm there I'm going to read it all and see if there's anything good in it. If there's nothing good in it, no matter because getting me to write for extended times during my days was the first step that needed to take place. I get in that zone, that zone of creativity where stuff just flows. That is what I needed.
We all need something like that. You might not be a writer, but you are something. There is something in your life now or has been that you can take part in where you can get in that creative zone and just create. You gotta do that whatever it is. It is a gift.
I wish we could sit together at my table and talk about your life and Jesus and drink coffee and laugh and just have fellowship. Coffee's always on (though I make it really strong -- I have tea too and I would even make a whole pot just the way you like coffee. I'll just put mine in a thermos).