He might want you to go hunting too.
Not the killing kind of hunting though. He's sending us on a treasure hunt.
Proverbs 25:2 says, "It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, But the glory of kings is to search out a matter."
In this verse "glory" is a noun -- the glory is a mark of distinction, a reason for someone's fame, a great wonderful quality -- something like this.
I used to read that thinking that God loved to keep a secret from us. And maybe that's true, but there's a reason for that. He wants us to hunt for His truth; seek Him so we find Him, so we find answers, so we find joy in Him and the answers.
Because we always want to know why. We humans love to conquer the unknown. We like to answer the questions that come up within us and in our loved ones' lives. It's so hard to learn to be content with the unknown.
I think God delights in our need for answers -- it means we are searching and living. He wants us to find the treasure. He wants us to do the seeking.
What a gobbly gook of words I'm writing. Part of it is that I need a new mood stabilizer so the mania and the lows don't control my brain. So I'm writing out of the empty-crazy-kooky place of me. But it is also true God has sent me on a hunt. Last summer I spent days and days writing about how to deal with mental illness with the help of God and faith and life and the Word of God. When I reread the pages I wrote I found a lot of great stuff, but no one was just going to read it as it was. I got an idea of putting it into a fiction book of letters from Agnes to Annie -- two women who have become quite important to me even though they aren't actual people. And their lives have become dear to me (so maybe there will be more books written about them because I want to know more about them).
But they aren't dear to anyone else at the moment. I've been working on trying to get someone to read this book who could publish it and I realized this morning, that in the form it is, it isn't publishable. If I had written a novel about Annie or Agnes this one could follow that, but I haven't yet. And I know it is good stuff this book I've written. I just have to package it differently. I have to add to it. I have to hunt for the answer to making it publishable. I don't have much energy today to tackle it, but it is a treasure hunt God has put before me.
I'm impulsive. Actually that could be my first name: Impulsive Hinrichs. I want to see this book published so it will help lots of people but also so I can buy my husband the truck I want to buy him and help us financially. Things aren't that easy though. Anything worth working for takes a lot of work. Today I'm just going to think about it. I do a lot of work in my head before I put words to the page (not in this blog though -- I write what comes to mind...you probably can tell). This won't be a quick process. More like a month or two of work before this gets to where it needs to be. And it is a treasure hunt ordained by God.
And I'm not alone. We all are individuals to God and each incredibly special to Him in ourselves. Yet, we are all alike in some ways. God might be sending you on a treasure hunt too for some truth you need to live more fully for Him. Are you going to say yes to the hunt? We can say no you know. We can be like that one child at a birthday party who refuses to play along even though by playing along he would find a really cool prize. But he doesn't want to make the effort. He'll just sit in a chair and stare at the cake while the rest of the kids run around. We really shouldn't choose to be that spoiled kid. Let's play along. Play along and find the treasure God has for you. I think very possibly God has an incredible sense of fun and adventure He wants to share with us if we'd let Him. But we take ourselves so darn serious. We won't miss out on the cake if we go ahead and go on the hunt. In fact we might enjoy the cake more if we follow where God is leading.
And you know what -- I'm not even going to reread this before I publish it. So, I apologize for any typos that might be in here. Oh heck, no I will reread it quick -- there still might be typos but there will be fewer of them. Go hunting. You won't regret it.