God's got to put us all in different places in the world and in different socio-economic classes because there are people who need Jesus everywhere. Oh Friend, don't put down your life. Don't belittle that precious gift that you are. You shine. You are a light for Jesus where you are at. God knows where you're at. He put you there. And if He put you there He will see you through. He needs you there. You are vital to His mission. You are vital to other people's salvation. Oh, hold on. Spring is coming. God is your hope. God is your rock. He hasn't deserted you. He knows how you feel. He knows it's hard right now. He knows how hard it is. And He says, Hold on. Hold on My Child. I'm there. Don't give up. Just lean on Me. I will get you through.
"just as it is written, 'Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard, and which have not entered the heart of man, All that God has prepared for those who love Him.'" 1 Corinthians 2:9
You are who you are for a reason. He's shining through you at this very moment. He's with you. He's preparing wonderful things for you.
"God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong." 1 Corinthians 1:27
Your life might not measure up to this world's standards of success, but you are chosen. You are gifted. You are "His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that (you) should walk in them" Ephesians 2:10
God says, Oh Child of Mine. You are so precious to Me. You are so so so precious to Me. I'm coming. Don't give up. I'm coming.