Don't be offended. You have crud in your heart. I have crud in my heart. We all do. Don't be surprised at that. God isn't. Read the verse on the left. That is truth. And the sooner we accept it as truth the sooner God can do His work in us to clear the junk out.
Sure. You can live with all that bad stuff. People do this all the time. People live their whole lives with poison in their hearts. Jesus says in Matthew 15:18-20, "But the things that proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and those defile the (person). For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, slanders. These are the things which defile the (person);"
Proverbs 27:17 says, "Iron sharpens iron, so one (person) sharpens another."
I tell my kids often that their true character comes out in how they treat the ones they live with; how we treat those we feel safest with; how we treat those people who we see day in and day out; those people who see us in the early morning and the late at night; our brothers and sisters, spouses and children. How we treat these people is a spotlight to who we are. That's why this time of just hanging out with family at home can give God the opportunity to clear away the garbage that lives in our hearts. When it is exposed to the light it can be cleared out.
It's no use denying what is there. One of my children loves to kick against the boundaries this child so desperately needs to be safe and grow in wisdom and joy and love. How I respond to this shows who I really am. And I tell you -- I am not at all like Jesus sometimes. Instead of condemning myself for negative thoughts or irritation I can just hand it over to God and ask Him ot change me, to make me like Him.
There is great power in getting alone with God and laying it all out in honesty and vulnerability. That lets Him in. Self-justification, excuses, blaming others -- all these kinds of reactions harm ourselves and our relationships with others and God. If you catch yourself doing any of that, stop and ask God to help you respond in love.