Sometimes I'm tired of being a mom. How can I say that? I have great kids. I have learned a lot from them and grown as a person. My oldest turns 23 next month and my life would not be my life if it weren't for my kids. But still, it's true.
And I feel lousy about feeling this way because you see all these moms all over the net talking about how wonderful it is to be a mom and how their lives are complete just getting kisses from their kids and doing things with their kids and looking beautiful with their kids. And I think, what's wrong with me? How can I not find fulfillment in being a mom, the role God ordained for me; the role He blessed me with; the role that is more important than most anything else I can do in life?
Maybe it's a phase. Maybe it's a season of life. Maybe it's cause I'm 50.
Honestly, it's probalby none of those things. It's probably because I'm human.
Uggg. I sometimes hate being human. I will never understand how God loves us humans so darn much!
Yet, I remember that "there is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." Romans 8:1
Even when we grow tired of our blessings, God doesn't condemn us. He doesn't kick us and tell us to shape up. He doesn't even get disgusted wtih us.
He just tells us to look up. To look to Him. He's been the Parent for a very, very long time and never grows tired of it. He can give us that love and endurance and encouragement we need when we get weary.
"The Everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth Does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, and o him who lacks might He increases power." Isaiah 40:28-29
"Therefore, since we have this ministry, as we received mercy, we do not lose heart." 2 Corinthians 4:1
"And God is able to make all grace abound to you, that always having all sufficiency in everything, you may have an abundance for every good deed." 2 Corinthians 9:8