Let me explain.
I went to court today telephonically in order to gain guardianship over my 18 year old son. There was no dispute over the ruling. We didn't expect there to be. It's obvious Hawk needs 24 hour care and my husband and and I are the ones to give it. We wouldn't have it any other way. It took less than 10 minutes. It was a routine case. But it was sobering, moving even.
No one expects when they birth a child that they will one day hear a judge rule for them to be their child's legal guardians because that child needs protection; because that child is so vulnerable he cannot ever function alone.
What unexpected journeys we all take. I for one am glad crystal balls don't work -- that people can't tell the future. If we saw what was ahead of us we might refuse to walk the way we were called to walk.
You are being prepared for something right now. It's not necessarily something bad. God very well might be preparing you for something really really good, but He can't tell you about it because a lot of times telling us would just not be a good thing.
"God, our God will take care of the hidden things but the revealed things are our business. It's up to us and our children to attend to all the terms in this Revelation." Deuteronomy 29:29
"I have many more things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now." John 16:12
Really live the life you have right now. Get all you can out of it. Learn what God wants you to learn. If you're struggling, lean into that struggle. Be like the butterfly who gets stronger in that struggle as it rids itself of its chrysalis casing -- if it didn't have the struggle it wouldn't be able to fly (you probably knew that). If your life is pretty quiet right now, notice the small blessings all around you and in you. Breathe in that quiet. Revel in it. If you're dealing with strife, ask God for peace and learn to live in His peace in the middle of strife. There are lessons in every situation we are in.
I know some of us are tired of winter these days, but the snow is sure pretty. And I know the temperatures are really cold, but spring is not that far off. We're already almost in the middle of February.
And if someone has wronged you, forgive them even if they haven't said they're sorry. Not everyone will. And it's not worth it to hold onto that grudge. Life is more than that. Grudges tend to suck life out of us, make our lives smaller somehow.
Enjoy your journey today.